Saturday, August 19, 2017

No estes lejos de mi

"No lejos de mí un solo día"
Pablo Neruda

No estés lejos de mí un solo día, porque cómo,
porque, no sé decirlo, es largo el día,
y te estaré esperando como en las estaciones
cuando en alguna parte se durmieron los trenes.

No te vayas por una hora porque entonces
en esa hora se juntan las gotas del desvelo
y tal vez todo el humo que anda buscando casa
venga a matar aún mi corazón perdido.

Ay que no se quebrante tu silueta en la arena,
ay que no vuelen tus párpados en la ausencia:
no te vayas por un minuto, bienamada,

porque en ese minuto te habrás ido tan lejos
que yo cruzaré toda la tierra preguntando
si volverás o si me dejarás muriendo.

"Don't Go Far Off"
Pablo Neruda

Don't go far off, not even for a day, because --
because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long
and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station
when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because
then the little drops of anguish will all run together,
the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift
into me, choking my lost heart.

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach;
may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance.
Don't leave me for a second, my dearest,

because in that moment you'll have gone so far
I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking,
Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?

Friday, August 18, 2017

My heart´s aching..it needs to be with YOU...

God put on my heart for a few weeks now this desire to write this letter to you..I've been thinking of you a lot lately. This evening, I was talking to my friend on the phone, and the conversation made me miss you even more..I just wonder where you are...There's days when I need you more than the air I breathe. There's other days when I don't feel pain, I just feel there's something missing in my heart and it's got the shape of yourself. It is weird, cause I don't know you, but I do..:) (don't ask to explain how that is, cause I can't, but I know you..He's made me out of your ribs, I am part of you and you are part of me). Yeah, you probably think I am a weirdo, and you are right..but I really miss you! And you need a proof of this :)

You know, in the last year God had a lot of work with me. He had to change a few things in my life, things that I thought I could never deal with..it is so weird. He had to bring me all the way to Spain, to teach me this! It is impressive. I am so blessed to have in my life people that help me overcome my fears, help me understand life, people that God sent to my life, and it all happened here, in Spain, the country I never (ever) wanted to come and live.

My heart's aching, it needs to be with you...there's this part of my life I can only live with you, and it can't be released until you get here, so please, please come!

Many times I wonder where you are, what you do..and wish I was there. Or at least know where you are and how your life looks like. This time of waiting is getting dicult sometimes. But I am thankful the Lord is by my side all the time and He holds me, gives me strength to continue.

https://youtu.be/F27QBTRTc0A